The sun is starting to shine (a little)

Sunflowers in Provence 2008

I had a terrible day yesterday, was sad, miserable and the weather was the coldest it has been all year. I took my beautiful girl Daisy for a walk with Jimmney (Daisy being my golden retriever and Jimmney my partner, (Jimmney Cricket my nick name for him - so JC)).

Miss Daisy - My Southern Belle

Bending down to pick up Daisy's poop was v difficult and made me sore, JC was helpful but I just needed "me time" - so I ended up saying, I think I need to sleep today and he went home to his place. Was the best thing I could have done. I was a sad sack by myself and I looked at all the before and after pics, once again on LBT and then had a snooze and some liquid yogurt, and then another snooze and some broccoli soup and then watched TV - "So you think you can dance - Australia" Finale - so I cried, (but this time I had an excuse) Tahlia won!!! Very happy about it - even voted for her. Only reality show that I actually watch.

So I think my post yesterday may have shown a bit of the sad sacks - since it was my first, not a great start - but best to leave it how it is rather than change it. I have been told that its coming off the drugs they give you that causes the sads - has anyone else had these?  

So on to brighter happier things, I was able to sleep on my side and then on my tummy last night - so I had a fantastic sleep. I am still in bed because it is so v v cold, but JC is coming over to take me out for a coffee before he goes to his board meeting. I am sipping on my "Charlie's food" drink which is a fruit drink with all sorts of things - one being Spirulina so it's green and yummy!! Had my Panadeine and the world seems a much better place this morning. 

I am going to get up shortly (after a quick look at before and afters, again) take Daisy for a walk around the block and go for coffee - I think I may even do some work this afternoon for my clients, aren't I good :) I told them I wouldn't start back till Wednesday, but best to get a few things out of the way. Being self employed has its ups and downs - being unable to work doesn't register in clients heads!

2 days down - keeping me accountable

Originally I looked into getting banded at the end of 2007. I had a seminar booked in but my father died from cancer a week before the seminar - obviously not even on my mind and forgot to go - since then I have gained 16 kgs. 

I have been reading peoples blogs ever since I decided to get the band done once and for all, about January this year.  I came back from Hawaii (which was a truly beautiful holiday) to my highest weight ever and 6 kgs heavier than I actually thought I was (thats 16 kgs since I first thought about the LB!!!!!!). 

Me happily sipping away at a pina colada - oblivious.

I jumped on the scales a few weeks after I returned, then promptly jumped right off. I could make excuses for the fluid retention etc. etc. but the plain truth is I didn't recognise myself and my weight had gone out of control. I think I must have been looking in a warped mirror for a few months because I thought I was looking ok!?!

So the realisation was - I need to do something serious about this. I had been going up and down like a yo yo over the last 10 years and it was no good for anyone - especially my wardrobe space! 

So lets cut to the chase - 

This is the start of my new life.

I was banded on Friday 24th April 2009, (thats 2 days ago).

I lost 11kgs pre op and want it to steadily disappear.

My next goal is to get to under 100kg before our holiday to France in mid July.

Once I get to under 100kgs I will take it slower, but this is my first major goal and one I want to keep. - would be okay with pic to left of 105kg but would love love love under 100kgs.

I want to write this blog to keep me accountable.

This blog, hopefully will be one of my tools to get there.

So here I start to explore . . . dream . . . and discover.