First Goal Achieved - I love my band!!!!

I got on the scales on Saturday - first goal down - soooooo I bought myself a beautiful pale pink (blush) top from Witchery with layered ruffles and I felt like a million dollars - had a dinner on Friday night, I wore it, then washed it and wore it Saturday night to a very swanky wine dinner then washed it again and wore it to lunch on Sunday with my very dear friends. Will have to post a pic.  

It is a large and Witchery only goes up to 14 so although it is stretchy I was very very very very happy - I even got emotional when my friends on Sunday lunch commented on how beautiful I looked. How good do I feel, I then started to try on my wardrobe today and I have more clothes to wear. My jeans I can pull on without undoing and they sit even a little bit too baggy - such a different feeling to a few weeks ago when it hurt to sit down in them for too long. 

It is strange though - the way my clothes feel, I would have been lighter than I am now when I last wore them - I think my shape has changed - thanks to Jason and lots of walking. So far my belly isn't sagging - I think that is thanks to Bio Oil and Jason and maybe my mum and dad (good genes, and parents - of course :) but i did notice I have loose skin around what used to be my double chin - anyone have any ideas on how to get rid of this??

So got to my first goal of 115kgs - I love you band xoxo

Learning to respect the band . . .

I have found something out today - I know - you should learn something every day, blah blah blah.

I have found out the hard way - chew chew chew chew chew and stop!!!!

I thought I had no restriction left - I could have a Japanese Bento box for lunch - no probs - munch on that with my friends.  Yum Yum - haven't had one in a while - Yum Yum - hmmmm.

So munching away, tasting this bit then that bit then that bit then this bit and forgot I had this new thing in my body that meant - no lou lou - think about what you are doing. 

My Bento box had a bit more than this :)

I unfortunately had eaten too much and not chewed enough and I am still in pain. I went to bed early and then had to call Jimmney in with panic as I thought I was having a heart attack - he kindly took my pulse :) told me I was okay and I finally went off to sleep until he came to bed and sat on my foot!!

So it is now almost 20 hours since I had the Bento box and I am still in pain. A very good lesson and one I wont forget. 

Moments like these I need to drill into my head - chew chew chew and swallow then stop!!

What a feeling!

First when there's nothing

but a slow glowing dream

that your fear seems to hide

deep inside your mind.

All alone I have cried

silent tears full of pride

in a world made of steel,

made of stone.

Well, I hear the music,

close my eyes, feel the rhythm,

wrap around, take a hold

of my heart.

What a feeling.

Bein's believin'.

I can have it all, now I'm dancing for my life.

Take your passion

and make it happen.

Pictures come alive, you can dance right through your life.

From Flashdance - I am a product of the eighties.

So found this on the web - think this will be my inner anthem for the next year. I am going to learn this and sing it to myself, it is exactly how I am feeling at the moment and if I could bottle it I would - but this may be the next best thing. 

I'm a little strange I know - but whatever gets the butt moving!! 

xox

So I jumped on the scales on Thursday morning and I had such a shock, I first of all thought I had put weight on because they had moved quite a bit (old fashioned scales :) But Noooo..... I have lost 2 kgs, or 4.4 pounds. 

I am completely repaired. No more pain, eating a bit of mushy stuff - basically out a lot - which caused the weight in the first place, but now I am sensible and have 1 glass wine. I have been having dahl, risotto, a zucchini (squash) salad, scrambled eggs - only small portions of it though, about 1/3 of the serving. Everything is going very smoothly.

So I am a very happy camper - people are starting to notice and I feel fantastic. My feet aren't as sore when I wake up and I have a definite spring in my step! I am feeling a lot thinner than I am - but who cares, I love this feeling. 

I called my trainer up tonight and said I would be rearing to go next Thursday to start back on the PT sessions - he was very excited, he has just finished a new course that he wants to use on me - he has a book for me and he seems as excited as me. 

Jim keeps saying he has a new girlfriend every time he sees me. I could start singing and dancing on the top of a mountain if it wasn't so bitterly cold outside.

So - to sign off - because, yet again I am going out with some friends - to a wine bar and then Japanese. (miso soup is my new love.)

Life is beautiful :)

The sun is starting to shine (a little)

Sunflowers in Provence 2008

I had a terrible day yesterday, was sad, miserable and the weather was the coldest it has been all year. I took my beautiful girl Daisy for a walk with Jimmney (Daisy being my golden retriever and Jimmney my partner, (Jimmney Cricket my nick name for him - so JC)).

Miss Daisy - My Southern Belle

Bending down to pick up Daisy's poop was v difficult and made me sore, JC was helpful but I just needed "me time" - so I ended up saying, I think I need to sleep today and he went home to his place. Was the best thing I could have done. I was a sad sack by myself and I looked at all the before and after pics, once again on LBT and then had a snooze and some liquid yogurt, and then another snooze and some broccoli soup and then watched TV - "So you think you can dance - Australia" Finale - so I cried, (but this time I had an excuse) Tahlia won!!! Very happy about it - even voted for her. Only reality show that I actually watch.

So I think my post yesterday may have shown a bit of the sad sacks - since it was my first, not a great start - but best to leave it how it is rather than change it. I have been told that its coming off the drugs they give you that causes the sads - has anyone else had these?  

So on to brighter happier things, I was able to sleep on my side and then on my tummy last night - so I had a fantastic sleep. I am still in bed because it is so v v cold, but JC is coming over to take me out for a coffee before he goes to his board meeting. I am sipping on my "Charlie's food" drink which is a fruit drink with all sorts of things - one being Spirulina so it's green and yummy!! Had my Panadeine and the world seems a much better place this morning. 

I am going to get up shortly (after a quick look at before and afters, again) take Daisy for a walk around the block and go for coffee - I think I may even do some work this afternoon for my clients, aren't I good :) I told them I wouldn't start back till Wednesday, but best to get a few things out of the way. Being self employed has its ups and downs - being unable to work doesn't register in clients heads!

2 days down - keeping me accountable

Originally I looked into getting banded at the end of 2007. I had a seminar booked in but my father died from cancer a week before the seminar - obviously not even on my mind and forgot to go - since then I have gained 16 kgs. 

I have been reading peoples blogs ever since I decided to get the band done once and for all, about January this year.  I came back from Hawaii (which was a truly beautiful holiday) to my highest weight ever and 6 kgs heavier than I actually thought I was (thats 16 kgs since I first thought about the LB!!!!!!). 

Me happily sipping away at a pina colada - oblivious.

I jumped on the scales a few weeks after I returned, then promptly jumped right off. I could make excuses for the fluid retention etc. etc. but the plain truth is I didn't recognise myself and my weight had gone out of control. I think I must have been looking in a warped mirror for a few months because I thought I was looking ok!?!

So the realisation was - I need to do something serious about this. I had been going up and down like a yo yo over the last 10 years and it was no good for anyone - especially my wardrobe space! 

So lets cut to the chase - 

This is the start of my new life.

I was banded on Friday 24th April 2009, (thats 2 days ago).

I lost 11kgs pre op and want it to steadily disappear.

My next goal is to get to under 100kg before our holiday to France in mid July.

Once I get to under 100kgs I will take it slower, but this is my first major goal and one I want to keep. - would be okay with pic to left of 105kg but would love love love under 100kgs.

I want to write this blog to keep me accountable.

This blog, hopefully will be one of my tools to get there.

So here I start to explore . . . dream . . . and discover.